The Girl

There are times in my life where I think reality becomes overwhelming. Where I just need to breath. I need to be whisked away in a fantasy with no basis on actual events. So I should read right? Yeah I know you'd think with this specific desire I'd be a total Harry Potter fan huh. well I'm not. I don't like fantasy.

So what in the world am I talking about?

I don't know actually. I think whether I need it or not I just enjoy getting caught up in a dream. I enjoy this make believe land I've created in my mind where Oprah thinks I'm fascinating, where I still dance 30 ish hours a week, where I actually look good without make up, and where random love songs are written about me. Like this one:

This is actually completely the reason I'm posting anything. I'm in love with this song. I'm in love with how in love he is with whoever "her" is. It's fantastic. Listen to the whole thing. Ugh. One day a love song about me will be a reality....................right?

Narnia Part I

I'm not sure exactly what I'm going to write. I just know it's not going to be a lot. This is just going to be a little reflective over view. (is any body else seriously struggling with motivation lately too?)

ok. Here is the news. I went to Washington DC! It was incredible. I loved every second of it.

Back up. Why did I go? I went because History is my minor in college and I spend a ton of money and time learning about this place, but all I did was read about it. It was no more real to me than Narnia. So. Life got a little rocky again and one morning I woke up with two very clear options for the day; I was either going to have a panic attack, or I was going to buy a plane ticket somewhere. So I called my aunt and did very little "talking into" and the next day we booked our flight!

It was incredible having her by my side on this trip. I think her expectations were different of me on the trip. She seemed to expect to be dragged around like a rag doll starting at 7 am every morning and just trying to see everything. She seemed to be grateful that I was more than happy to sleep in till 9 every day, and not wake her up for another hour. Although... I doubt she expected me to do so much soul searching on the trip. She was great. She handled everything like a champ and we both learned a lot on the trip.

Here are just a few...... very very very few highligths.

Dancing in front of the Capitol!

Carolyn Joined us one day (monday)!! It was so good to see her. She's just as lovely as I remembered.

Chair and I sitting on the steps of the Lincoln memorial gazing on the Amazing that is DC.

We had a lot of fun at all the different art museums. My favorite was when she'd turn to me and whisper "Hillary... I don't get it." That would usually happen in front of pieces that I actually really enjoyed.

I quoted Tom Hanks an absurd amount on the trip. For example, whenever ANYONE would talk about George Washington University I would turn to Chair and say "did you pledge?..............everyday." (it's from "Big") I also did a lot of Forest Gump lines, even calling her Jennay a few times.

I was disappointed with a few things I had high expectations of, and blown away by things I wasn't even expecting to see. I found this at the National Gallery of Art and I find it to be flawless. This is an absolutely incredible piece with so much symbolism and meaning behind it. Love it!

I know how to act like a lady. And I did most of the time. But let there be no mistake.... when it was appropriate... I was a total goof ball.

Like I said, it was a great trip with a lot of "looking within." I'm so glad I had my aunt with me and I adored the family we stayed with. Coming home was strangely excited for both of us, but we wouldn't have traded our time for anything.

Poster.

Last night I made a facebook status update that read like this:

"I need a good cry, so I decided to watch Titanic. Problem.... I don't own Titanic. So I decided to stare at my Titanic poster for a while. Not the same effect.... who knew."

I don't know if you believed me. So I decided to take a picture:

Then I decided that you needed to see my other posters.

Justin Bieber.

This next one I stole this one from my mother before she passed away. I'm kind of glad she saw that we shared a strange love for him.

Christopher Reeves.

Anyway(S). There you have it. That's what takes up my doors. (I actually have a James Dean one that I LOVE... I just haven't hung it up. I need to get around to that now that I'm thinking about it)

Also.. I've been listening to alot of Garth Brooks lately, which has been just as magical as it sounds. Here is a song for your enjoyment:

okay okay okay Back to homework.

First and Third

I'll be checking a major thing off of my "Bucket List" this weekend.

To celebrate our one year anniversary, Paul and I are driving down to to watch my FAVORITE COMEDIAN OF ALL TIME:

Now keep in mind...We'll be doing that the DAY after we see my THIRD favorite comedian

This is going to be the funniest weekend of my life.

2012

I've always hated New Years Resolutions. I've always thought that it was a terrible way to start off a year... setting a goal that you only superficially care about... and yet you beat yourself up in mid march because you for whatever reason you didn't keep up to the unreasonable plan you had. But this year I caved. I decided I need to make some...goals? changes? resolutions? whatever. It doesn't matter what you call them, they all mean the same thing: in 2011 I wasn't someone I was ultra proud to be. Not because I was a bad person. But I was lacking.

Now I wish I could make some goals that were going to make me this great person, but no single goal can repair this big of a mess. So... baby steps right? Make small tweaks that will hopefully have a domino effect... (hope....)

So here they are. My goals. My Tweaks. My New Year Resolutions.

(In no order particular order)

Spend More Time With Levi Douglas.

Continue to Get to Know and Love Paul David.

Tape this Picture in a Notebook and Write About it. Continually Adding to the Journal.

Build Credit.

Pray on My Knees.

Do More Yoga

Study More Effectively.

Continue Attending the Temple... but More.

Schedule My Time Better. (This is going to be the biggest Domino effect)

Use My Passport for Traveling Purposes, or at Least the Ball Rolling for a Chance to.

Wish me Luck.

Birthday Week, Christmas Tree, and a Lady

POST COMING SOON!!

Chick Flick

I don't have chick flicks.

I don't like them.

(Titanic, Somewhere in Time, and Moulin Rouge don't count.... those are great films.)

So while this normally isn't a problem.... because normally when I put in a movie its to enjoy a good movie, not to cry.... it's bad when I want to cry.

SOLUTION!!! : Will Smith starred in a kick-a-freakin-good film...... that has a scene that WITHOUT FAIL.... I SOB during.

Ladies and Gentlemen... I present to you... the closest thing I have to a chick flick